TO BE STILL FOREVER

We are in general a race of wanters. As far as I can tell we always want. Maybe this is what makes humans king of the realm. When we lived in our little caves we weren't content with raw meat and dark nights. We wanted fire to see and cook with. We weren't happy carrying our stuff and walking so we came up with the wheel. We wanted something to pull our stuff around and to also carry us so we figured out how to make animals do it for us. And on it went. Each new thing filling a want.
We seem to want from each other the most. From "you work at a tire center? Can you get me a deal on a new set?" To "will you love me and want me forever?". Take heed, when a stranger says his main goal is to help you and make your life better. He wants something from you.
There is in my mind an exception to this. And her name is mom. She seems to be the only one who truly has your best interest in mind all the time. She is the one that runs to kitchen and starts cooking even though you've told her you're not hungry. She's the one that calls when you're sick even though all you have is a cold. And she's the one that worries about you all the time whether your 5 or 50.
You can feel like you are the worst human being on the planet but to mom your are still the greatest gift God has ever blessed her with.
She wants nothing from you but for you to be happy. Maybe some successes in your life so she has something to brag about to her friends.

I bring this up because a year and a day ago I lost my mom. And it has been harder on me than I ever thought it would be. I don't care how you think you feel about your mom when she leaves you forever it will hurt. And that hurt will come in ways you don't expect and at times that will surprise you. When you first see the ads for mothers day you will feel alone. When Christmas comes and you write your list there will be a blank spot. And with each new grandchild born your heart will fill with sadness along with joy knowing that this little child will never know the wonderful person that you call mom.
You will deal with it for deal with it you must. Life will move forward even though it may seem to be a path that is a little less clear. And adjust you will to the knowledge that never again will you see that smile or hear those words of encouragement. You will still have friends and family that love you very much but you know that your greatest cheerleader for you and your life is silent forever.
And no matter your age, young or old, you will feel like an orphan.

GOD BLESS YOU MOM. THANK-YOU FOR THE LIFE AND LOVE YOU GAVE TO ME.